We have achieved morning
without even trying
With no effort of our own, the sun has shown itself
I’m pretty sure there is a lesson in there somewhere
I see my fears play out over what if’s and maybe’s;
to what avail?
Unlikely scenarios take on monstrous proportions;
And then I come back to myself and find some compassion
And notice the day has arrived at the right time
It is time to admit that I may have arrived
and if the journey was different than anticipated
I find I have most often thrived
I fought polio before I was two years old
Only limp a little – some people don’t notice – or so I’ve been told
It colored my world but my world evolved
I confronted some problems
Some even got solved
If it all ends now
It’s been a life full of grace
If it continues awhile
I will fill up this space
I have little to offer
The prospects are bleak
I miss inspiration
What is it I seek?
The coffers are full
There is gas in the tank
Spring is upon us
Whom do I thank?
So, anyway, I have stalled on the weight loss in February and I blame February. Now that it’s March I think I will lose these final ten pounds.
I think maybe I just eat more comfort foods in winter (along with the more nutrient dense foods) and it just adds up to too many empty calories. Also, with the lack of sunshine, I have been eating eggs on occasion and salmon to try to pick up some Vitamin D, so my focus on being strictly vegan has taken a turn.
The good news is, this is a glitch and not a reversion to unhealthy eating patterns. I am not tempted to go back in any permanent way — I am tempted, instead, to carry on. I miss how much better I feel on the good stuff even though I think the exceptions also insure that I stay focused because the idea of NEVER eating a cookie or NEVER eating bacon, might be the very thing that keeps a person from even trying. At least it is bacon without nitrates and from humanely raised farms so there’s that. Maybe that’s just making excuses. I’ll consider that.
This seems like such good advice:
“View your life with kindsight. Stop beating yourself up about things from your past. Instead of slapping your forehead and asking, ‘What was I thinking,’ breathe and ask yourself the kinder question, ‘What was I learning?’” ~Karen Salmansohn
……and this just rings so true:
“If you are never scared, embarrassed, or hurt, it means you never take chances.” ~Julia Soul
….and not only does it mean you never take chances but it might mean you never even attempt to accomplish much at all — the more you do, the more opportunities there are for mistakes. Mistakes are inevitable and that’s just a metaphysical reality. I tend to beat myself up over any little mistake, but in any life, no matter how conscientious we are, there are those moments of imperfection and you just have to say uh-oh and move on. Apologize or rationalize or over-analyze, and maybe even fix it, but move on. And recognize and be grateful when they are little mistakes; keep a perspective – if time or money or a good night’s sleep can fix it, hot-diggity. Sometimes I’m tempted to just withdraw so I can avoid the oops factor. It’s kind of brave to keep on, because you put yourself out there–on the line. But if you don’t take the risks involved in taking on challenges, you also don’t get the opportunity to make a contribution or to receive the particular satisfaction of hard work.
It is an ill-conceived illusion that there is someone out there who will get the job done without ever missing a beat….there may be better, there may be worse but there will not be a flawless one. The beats that are missed may be different, but missed beats there will be.
Engage, join the fray, participate — life calls us in.
I was going to buy a copy of The Power of Positive Thinking, and then I thought, ‘What the hell good would that do?’
I don’t know if I’m okay.
But I am on the way to finding out.
I tripped and fell into the tree of knowledge.
But it was not as wise as I expected.
It only appeared to be so.
In reality, it was the tree
of all that is unknown.
So…it didn’t really offer reassurance.
I don’t know if I’m okay.
But I am.
In the midst of cold, cold winter
I dream of warmer days
The green of spring
The warmth of June
The sweet, sweet smell of May
If every day were lovely
And sunshine ruled the weeks
Would I be so full of joy
When the good life finally peaks?
Years go by….slowly and quickly at once..and then, suddenly, you’re in a whole new age category. I am happy to be here, but it’s an adjustment. And then there’s the bangs – then and now! A 1950′s phenomenon for little girls?