A Wisp of Hope

Every time I think I’m fine

for now and the rest of my life

my mind slips back into its old familiar ways. 

How do I defy such a tenacious challenger? 

It seems to hold all the cards

and can scare me with a shadow,

sending me scurrying in circles.

I don’t like to believe this to be true of me —

that I am sometimes afraid of things;

things I cannot predict though I struggle mightily;

but I have to give myself high marks for bravery,

because I do not retreat. 

I mostly live with a sense of joy and appreciation

which feels so essential and so good

I don’t want to retreat from this state of being,

or to stumble into fear in the face of uncertainty

And so I wish to discourage the over-protective warnings

chattering at me from behind;

chattering at me from my incessant, misguided, irrepressible mind;

luring me down the old worn paths trudged in days gone by

A wisp of hope is all I need.  All I need to carry on.

I take some sustenance from these words from Thoreau — he offers hope. I will not give up:

“As a single footstep will not make a path on the earth, so a single thought will not make a pathway in the mind. To make a deep physical path, we walk again and again. To make a deep mental path, we must think over and over the kind of thoughts we wish to dominate our lives.”

Henry David ThoreauIMG_0184

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