I have given yoga a break and I do feel the loss as far as the structure and consistency.
It was definitely a great way to build strength and balance and I am grateful to my yoga instructor…
……and yet… after about four years, I found myself becoming increasingly impatient with the whole thing;
I felt somewhat annoyed that I mostly didn’t feel centered and calm and deeply moved at the appropriate times.
And the hour sessions were long!
I finally started wearing a watch because it helped me deal with the timing of it better — –felt a little disturbing to not know how much time remained in the session. (Don’t they deprive people of a sense of time in order to punish them or make them talk — give with the information?)
I wanted to feel more enlightened instead of slightly skeptical about the presentation – some things seemed just made up and I had to ask how is it possible to breathe into my thigh or some equally impossible task.
I still do some yoga on my own as part of daily exercise; because I think it has value but it got to be an expense I couldn’t justify . “I will help you reach spiritual, ethereal heights and you can pay me by the month.” Our yoga instructor taught me a lot and of course she deserved to get paid but there was an unnecessary pretense of being above all the economic realities.
Note: One thing that would have made yoga less appealing would be to have a goat jump on my back.