- Avocado, roasted red pepper, tomato, onion with a little vegenaise and mustard — simple. On a blue plate. Good.
Haven’t written much lately. And I don’t know why! Life is good. Went to Italy in March and broke my wrist on the way down Mt Vesuvius. I hadn’t even walked all the way up! Ah, I knew that volcano would get me.
It was a wonderful and amazing trip (pardon the pun) in spite of that unwanted event.
I loved Italy and the coffee they served and the way that they served it. And I have stories about the joys of traveling with my husband, and my daughter and her husband (who guided us with great care and patience), and the wonderful people we met and finding and visiting my grandparents home village.
So why don’t I write about all that in detail?
Meanwhile, I am getting ready to retire in January and I am thrilled and slightly terrified by the whole thing. I will miss the people and the structure of work and the details of my job and being necessary to the whole mission. I will also be elated to not have to attend to all those details and not being necessary to the whole shebang. I will miss the very things I do not currently wish to do. It’s such a mixed bag of emotions and expectations.
The very things I love are sometimes the very things I do not love.
What can happen?
What can happen?
Who can say
As I flounder through the day
Seeking to be well-aware
of all the good
I’m almost there
and if you look,
Appalling stuff has such a draw
all the news that’s fit to awe
it shouts and beckons
with screaming hues
attempting to distort all views
I choose to find
some wisdom ways
to calm my mind
Perspective and context
a path to grace
Anticipate this joyful place
I just read a post on Facebook from an expert. I think she makes a good point, but it got me to wonder if such commentary helps anything. She was talking about the fact that racism is taught and it is not innate and it is obviously illogical and she instructed people to knock it off. As if that statement will solve the problem and dense people will suddenly see the light. Another post said, basically, let’s have world peace day today — which is an excellent idea but the people patting themselves on the back for participating in world peace day are not the ones causing the violence in the first place.
People seem to love it when someone states the obvious — treating it as if it were oh-so-profound. Maybe I’m being cynical but for crying out loud: if people stop being racist that would be lovely but that’s not all there is to it. There are unkind people who use any excuse to gain power and are not persuaded by catchy phrases. Get me — stating the obvious.
Peace and harmony can be affected and increased by each individual; I do believe that. But scolding people on Facebook seems kind of ridiculous; the people who need to hear it are not likely to embrace the thing. What’s the point then? Is it so someone can say, “Aren’t I good? I am joining world peace day!” Otherwise, what? You were going to go be violent?
Ah, well…..just feeling aggravated by the simplistic, somewhat pious commentaries. If it helps people, though, who am I to say? Maybe it all really will make a positive difference.
Good Night, Gracie
and perspectives are found
and still I find myself thinking around
in circles and tangents in more than one bound
Awakened abruptly mid-sleep in my bed
and wondering where all the insights have fled
and why do I still get these feelings of dread
with unwelcome thoughts that pop into my head
Ah, well, it’s a cycle, it’s a pendulum swing
Last night I was laughing a lot in a dream
An optimistic upheaval; a paradigm shift?
A chance that I’m finally catching the drift?
Look at these thoughts that give me no clue
and the awful imaginings that have seldom rung true
See them clearly for the imposters they are
Seemingly logical, yet impossibly vague
Midnight meanderings are usually wrong
That’s a real thing that some scientist said
Not at your best when lying down half asleep
Counting back from a hundred with some rag-taggled sheep
Practice relinquishing future prediction
What a collection of unvarnished fiction!
This is a welcome and pure benediction
Say goodnight; give way to sleep’s jurisdiction
I felt light yesterday
the sun shone and called me away
Today jumped in and turned it all inside out
the sun lurked sullenly behind the rain clouds
and it’s not easy to have the sun out there
all lurk-y and sullen
just beyond reach
And it’s not easy to be at odds with it all
marching to a different drummer
Preparing for a plot to hatch
What would be the mood to match?
Who would find the point to catch?
Remember, to remember
don’t get too far ahead
don’t catch up to the future
stay right here instead
I’m consistently trying to figure things out
I wonder and wander through pages of doubt
After resolving an issue or two
Seventeen others arise into view
It’s exasperating and challenging and stupid and fun
with all sorts of emotions rolled into one
Mostly, I’m grateful for how things unfold
It could all wind up tragic
if truth would be told
Surely that’s life
It goes up
It goes down
My goal is to greet it with less of a frown
We are all kinds of brave as we face-off each trial
and our arms are wide open as life kicks us a smile