Category Archives: thoughts

Pet Peeve

…still a pet peeve.

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Just read some entries on a blog by someone else

Trying to expand my worldview a little way beyond myself

and the tone seemed to be mocking and condescending

A most superior person with each and every answer and opinions unending

who can barely tolerate anyone who thinks differently

or has a conflicting take on situations and how things could be

Seems so judgmental while criticizing others for being judgmental

I get the judging part and I think it’s fundamental

People do judge, will judge and occasionally must judge

but how about this?  This is an opinion of mine that won’t budge

Knock off the judging under the guise of having an open mind

while trashing anyone who won’t tow the party line

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Bread

Bread from McKenzie’ Bakery in Kalamazoo. Pane di como. It is good.

Sewing Things Up

I stopped writing each day

and I gained weight and felt sad

Coincidence?  Likely.

But worth a shot to get back into the routine

All I need is a line a day

 

A Good Egg and an Oxymoron

Looking forward to being in the moment.

Phyllis McGinley

Consider it.

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Interesting short poem by Phyllis McGinley:

The Old Feminist

Snugly upon the equal heights

Enthroned at last where she belongs

She takes no pleasure in her Rights

Who so enjoyed her Wrongs.

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I wonder if…

Accounting Principals from cake

I wonder if retiring in the winter was such a good idea as a little cabin fever is creeping in.  Maybe it’s okay, though.  It is definitely a time to lay low and relax a bit….and a time to recuperate from a cold.  And maybe more importantly, a time to recuperate from the somewhat unnecessary scramble to wrap things up at work while preparing things for the transition from me to my replacement; all of which was actually stressful and difficult. I allowed other people’s poor planning to become my problem.   I won’t miss facing that particular situation. 

I wonder if I learned anything from that experience.  I feel a certain disappointment that my recommendations went unheeded…would have been a smoother transition, I do believe.  Ah, well…..it is what it is and they are what they are and I am what I am.

I wonder if I will pursue a part-time job in this retirement phase.  Ah, honey, I do not know.

I wonder if I will get started now with more “arty” pursuits.  I received a gift certificate for the Kalamazoo Institute of the Arts …. so I can take a class sooner or later.  Meanwhile, time keeps on slippin’, slippin’, slippin’ into the future….which means spring is on the way and that is a good thing to anticipate. 

I wonder if I will be okay, be okay, be okay.  I say it could happen!

(“So many things I wonder.” — part of a song from Mixed Nuts movie)

 

Retirement & a Recipe

I have now been officially retired for 18 days, the last few days of which have been spent with a cold or flu — still not sure which.  I read that a cold doesn’t involve a fever and I did have a slight fever yesterday and part of the day before that of about 99.9 or so.  Fever is gone now and I am feeling better.   Meanwhile, my husband has a sinus infection and is on antibiotics so it’s been a less than stellar beginning.

This may be an aspect of the joy of retirement, though; it is so nice that I didn’t have to worry about payroll not getting done since I was feeling rather miserable and it is so nice that I didn’t have to stay at work even though I felt bad.  Just had to focus on healing.

I could even make a healing soup with ease.   Sauteed onions, celery and diced carrots in broth; then added remaining broth, and after that cooked for a few minutes, I added a crushed clove of garlic, a few sprinkles of thyme, dried basil, and a dash of paprika and some frozen peas.  Later we added in some rice to cook in the soup.  This photo shows pasta, but that was from last week (same process, same good taste).

The sandwich includes non-dairy cheese made by Follow Your Heart — the mozzarella version is especially good.

I read that broth and thyme and garlic and dark chocolate are supposed to be helpful for healing a cough– couldn’t hurt!

May we all be well and prosper.   Starting NOW!

 

I DON’T

Day fifteen of my retirement

and I am still a bit too concerned about what kind of problems are being had……

…….without me there

I have to keep reminding myself

I DON’T WORK THERE ANYMORE!

And I feel good about that fact, but I’m carrying on with a residual sense of responsibility for it all

I’ve had a few calls from them with questions and I’ve provided answers

and I worry that my answer might not be good enough

but I don’t want to get drawn back in because

I DON’T WORK THERE ANYMORE!

And I blame only me — not them– for the fact that I still feel some angst about the whole thing

They can ask anything.  I’m the one with the choices

and I can answer, or not, because

I DON’T WORK THERE ANYMORE!

…..and for my mental and emotional and physical health,

I need to just relax for awhile

and get over this cold, and see what unfolds

as I head down this uncharted road

I have shouldered a lot of responsibility for a hell of a long time

I gave (literally) years of notice as to when  I would be retiring.

I have earned the right to say no and if I hadn’t or haven’t,

it’s still not up to me to fix anything because

I DON’T WORK THERE ANYMORE!

And the people in charge might actually not be expecting anything more of me

This could be all in my own head

because they may understand even better than me that

I DON’T WORK THERE ANYMORE!

 

Be Okay–starting now

 

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be

disconsolate

and

weary

even though

there is so much to be happy about

and so much that I appreciate

what is the deal?

why not just be okay while I am okay?

okay.

 

She

She, they all said at her funeral,

was strong and carried on without complaint

     in the face of adversity.

Dealt with difficult times

     with admirable stick-to-it-iveness and optimism.

She, they all said at her funeral,

     loved life and traveling and painting.

What might they say about me

     in some future and similar scenario?

She, they might say at my funeral

     was strong and complained fairly often

          in the face of adversity.

Dealt with difficult times

     with stubborn resistance and eventual acceptance.

She, they might say at my funeral,

    loved life and staying home and writing

and watching Netflix