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Retirement & a Recipe

I have now been officially retired for 18 days, the last few days of which have been spent with a cold or flu — still not sure which.  I read that a cold doesn’t involve a fever and I did have a slight fever yesterday and part of the day before that of about 99.9 or so.  Fever is gone now and I am feeling better.   Meanwhile, my husband has a sinus infection and is on antibiotics so it’s been a less than stellar beginning.

This may be an aspect of the joy of retirement, though; it is so nice that I didn’t have to worry about payroll not getting done since I was feeling rather miserable and it is so nice that I didn’t have to stay at work even though I felt bad.  Just had to focus on healing.

I could even make a healing soup with ease.   Sauteed onions, celery and diced carrots in broth; then added remaining broth, and after that cooked for a few minutes, I added a crushed clove of garlic, a few sprinkles of thyme, dried basil, and a dash of paprika and some frozen peas.  Later we added in some rice to cook in the soup.  This photo shows pasta, but that was from last week (same process, same good taste).

The sandwich includes non-dairy cheese made by Follow Your Heart — the mozzarella version is especially good.

I read that broth and thyme and garlic and dark chocolate are supposed to be helpful for healing a cough– couldn’t hurt!

May we all be well and prosper.   Starting NOW!

 

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I DON’T

Day fifteen of my retirement

and I am still a bit too concerned about what kind of problems are being had……

…….without me there

I have to keep reminding myself

I DON’T WORK THERE ANYMORE!

And I feel good about that fact, but I’m carrying on with a residual sense of responsibility for it all

I’ve had a few calls from them with questions and I’ve provided answers

and I worry that my answer might not be good enough

but I don’t want to get drawn back in because

I DON’T WORK THERE ANYMORE!

And I blame only me — not them– for the fact that I still feel some angst about the whole thing

They can ask anything.  I’m the one with the choices

and I can answer, or not, because

I DON’T WORK THERE ANYMORE!

…..and for my mental and emotional and physical health,

I need to just relax for awhile

and get over this cold, and see what unfolds

as I head down this uncharted road

I have shouldered a lot of responsibility for a hell of a long time

I gave (literally) years of notice as to when  I would be retiring.

I have earned the right to say no and if I hadn’t or haven’t,

it’s still not up to me to fix anything because

I DON’T WORK THERE ANYMORE!

And the people in charge might actually not be expecting anything more of me

This could be all in my own head

because they may understand even better than me that

I DON’T WORK THERE ANYMORE!

 

Be Okay–starting now

 

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be

disconsolate

and

weary

even though

there is so much to be happy about

and so much that I appreciate

what is the deal?

why not just be okay while I am okay?

okay.

 

She

She, they all said at her funeral,

was strong and carried on without complaint

     in the face of adversity.

Dealt with difficult times

     with admirable stick-to-it-iveness and optimism.

She, they all said at her funeral,

     loved life and traveling and painting.

What might they say about me

     in some future and similar scenario?

She, they might say at my funeral

     was strong and complained fairly often

          in the face of adversity.

Dealt with difficult times

     with stubborn resistance and eventual acceptance.

She, they might say at my funeral,

    loved life and staying home and writing

and watching Netflix

 

 

 

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Now that’s just pretty

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Standing, Still

This is where I am

Here and now

Icy predictions

cannot deter me

I am one among many

We carry on

in the face of

considerable opportunities

for dire consequences

Impressive

if you think about it

 

 

 

It Occurs to Me….

It occurs to me

That I need not be

Accountable on any date

For every possible twist of fate

Responsibility has its place

And doggedly persevering

can win the race

But….

Advice to me was recently given

That there’s a time in space

For being driven

And…

This is something good to know:

There is also a time to

LET. IT. GO.

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Lunch and cookies on New Year’s Eve

Ending the year with a lunch of mushrooms sautéed in water with garlic pepper seasoning on Schar gluten-free bread with tomato, onion, lettuce, red pepper, green olives, Vegenaise and spicy mustard

Oatmeal cookies for dessert.

……and wondering why photos aren’t showing up as images when I edit them. And they aren’t formatting as tiled mosaic.

What is up with that?!

Food for Fuel–Getting Back on Track

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I feel a bit off and wonder if it could be because I have drifted a bit from the eat-to-live focus.  I’ve dabbled in the non-vegan world 🙂  and I’ve also  included two or three slices of bread each day.  Had a little ice-cream cone on Saturday — tasted good.  Oh, and a doughnut a few days ago.  It’s not a great variance, but maybe it doesn’t take  a lot.   I’ve also gained about four pounds………a sign that something is out of balance.  As soon as I inject processed food and sugar and meat into the dynamic, I pay a price.  Is it worth it?  That is the question.  

Back to basics starting now so I can get back on track which is where I like to be.  

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